[fail!private to self]

[ifbymyhands]

...If you can still hear me where you are, I want to apologize for everything. But you wouldn't want that, huh? You got on my case enough about that before.

So... I guess I'll say that I'm going to keep living, like you wanted. Maybe I'll see you again someday. I'll try to. A couple of months for me was a thousand years to you before, so maybe it's my turn. Heh, I'm sounding like I'm going to live a thousand years. I probably would have been happy with that. Maybe I'd live until we had space colonies, and I could go live on the moon or something. That might be fun.

...Oh, yeah. You might not even remember me.

But hey, if you don't... just know that you were my best friend, okay? Seriously. Even more than Potato, and it takes a lot to dethrone him, considering he was my only friend for about forever.

If I do have to go a thousand years without seeing you, I guess it's only fair. Maybe to you it'll be a couple of months this time.

So, uh, if you see this? Thanks for everything. I hope I did something worthwhile for you, too.

Comments

[denies]

[ Not seeing someone for a long time.. Yes, she knows all about how that feels, so.. ]

I hope you'll get to see them again.

[ifbymyhands]

Thanks. I don't know what else to do but hope. Well, I guess there's the option of making shady deals with suspicious people to get her back, but I'm pretty sure that would just make everything worse.

[denies]

Yeah, it does. I know all about shady deals with suspicious people for that sake, and they're usually not worth it since you end up worse in the end.

Even if hoping is way too idealistic.. it's the only thing that's left to do.

[ifbymyhands]

Probably. I'll do my best, Ange.

[denies]

Just hang in there. It's the best you can do.

[ifbymyhands]

Thanks.

I wonder if she remembers.

[denies]

I bet there must at least be something of the memories left, even if she wouldn't fully realise. It takes a lot to complete erase something like that.

[ifbymyhands]

I guess you would know about things like that more than I would.

[denies]

... Well, for me it was more about someone not recognizing me rather than not remembering, but.. it was close, yeah.

It feels pretty bad at first, but slowly you start to realise that what's important is being by their side even if they don't remember.

[ifbymyhands]

I probably won't see her for a long time.

[denies]

The hardest part is waiting. But if there's still a chance, you can't give up yet, right?

[ifbymyhands]

Yeah, there is.

[denies]

Then there's the answer. Just hang in there.

[ifbymyhands]

Thanks.